Happy 1st Birthday Nolan!

Today is Nolan's 1st Birthday, or as my friend Elaine says..."His first trip around the sun". This month has been a very weepy month for me as I come to terms with the fact that my baby is not so baby anymore. He is growing up so fast and in turn so am I. It is amazing to see him coming into his own and to see the special little person that he is. He is not some blank slate that I am writing a story on, he is his own person with his own story and he tells me a little bit of that story with every passing day. I have such a jumble of emotions when he tells me his story. I feel like a little kid wanting to read the same part of the book over and over again because I know how much I love it. I am reluctant to turn the page knowing that we wont go back to it once we move forward. But then, as the story continues, each new part is unimaginably more exciting than the last part and I am stuck all over again wanting to stay on this new page. Happy Birthday Nolan and thank you for letting me be a main character in your story.

Catastrophy!

Ok, brace yourself for the melodrama usually reserved for 16 year old girls that is about to follow....


My life is totally over as I know it! I was helping Nolan go down the slide at the park and I was twisted funny when I tried to adjust him and BAM! I get a horrible feeling all along my lower back and now it hurts so bad to sit, walk, bend, cough....you name it, it hurts. I think I may have pulled a muscle in my lower back. This is on top of being different degrees of sick for several weeks now and limited sleep so I already feel like I'm at the end of my rope.

The worst part of this all is I may have to miss my Wildflower Triathlon. At the very least, I'm not even able to train for it. This was my last few months of all out fun before Martin and I started trying for baby #2. I just wanted to mountain bike all that I could before I had to stop again and Wildflower was suppose to be my last hurrah. If I can't get out and do this stuff I am going to work myself into the biggest depression. All that stuff is such an endorphin rush I seriously do not know how to live without it.

To make all this much worse I had to ask myself the question, "What about FOOD?" I eat like a PIG and never care because I just burn it all off, but what the hell am I suppose to do now! I was really happy with this as my starting weight before baby #2. The last time I put a hold on this stuff I put on 10lbs in a blink of an eye and it didn't stop there, I gained another 60 lbs during pregnancy. This sucks and my life feels totally over if this doesn't heal NOW!


Just moments before the catastrophic back muscle injury.

We're going to the Zoo!

Yesterday, Nolan went to the zoo with his friends Riley and Brody. Originally, we were suppose to head to the Santa Barbara zoo but the Atascadero Zoo is sooo much closer so we decided to go there instead. Besides, In-N-Out is only a couple freeway exits away.

Nolan seemed to like the goats the best. I think it's because they were so eager to approach us. He first experimented with feeding the goat a stick and then thought the goat might like his finger better. Thankfully, the goat just gave him a little lick and decided he liked the stick better. We got to see the monkey's let it all hang out..pooping, peeing, and yes - one even "pleasured himself" in front of us. Nature in all it's glory!

This zoo trip was particularly cool because Elaine, Riley's mom, is a junior high teacher so she totally knows all the cool animal facts that all teachers seem to know. It was like I was on a school field trip again, but in a very fun way.